I’m slowly discovering how to make peace with timing. I’m learning how to slow. I’m reading how to take things easy. I’m reading how to live one day at a time. I’m learning how to stop rushing things that are not means to .
I’m slowly learning that maybe I don’t know better. Perhaps I’m not meant to have it all figured out by a certain age. Maybe I’m not meant to be married by 30 or have two kids by 35. Maybe all these timelines and dates I put for myself were all off and my jaunt is taking a totally different timeline. I’m gradually learning how to trust the timing of my expedition because each year I learn something new. Every time I change. Every time I evolve in a manner that is I never belief I would. Every time, day constructs more sense.
I’m slowly learning that period may not always be on my side but it’s on the right side. It’s on the side that stimulates appreciation. It’s on the side that will construct my future better and easier. It’s on the side that God has chosen and sometimes that’s all you really supposed to know . The hope that the timing will eventually be right and the stars will align and the clocks will tick when you’re exactly where you should be with who you really need to be with.
I’m slowly learning that waiting is not even worse. Waiting doesn’t mean you’re passive. Awaiting doesn’t mean you’ve failed. Waiting doesn’t mean your life is falling apart. Awaiting is a part of life. Patience is something we have to continuously accept and learn. Awaiting can sometimes mean you have faith in better and bigger things to come because the longer you wait, the greater the reward will be.
I’m gradually reading to be okay with late arrivals, with things not being done on time, with delays and obstacles and starting over. I’m gradually learning how to let things expire. I’m gradually learning that it’s okay to run out of time. It’s not the end of the world . There’s always tomorrow. There’s always a second possibility. There’s always another period or the other year. Nothing lasts eternally. Your timing won’t always working against you and it won’t always be wrong.
I’m gradually learning that it’s okay to let day win. It’s okay to let it have its behavior every once in a while. Why are we always trying to get ahead of ourselves? Why are we ever trying to prove others incorrect? Who are “weve been” vying with? Who are “weve been” chasing? I’m slowly learning how to pay less attention to things will happen and focus more on to construct them happen.
I’m slowly discovering how to believe in timing instead of trying to rearrange everything. I’m slowly learning to let time take its day because even the incorrect day produces you to the right time, the incorrect hour builds you appreciate timing, the incorrect period teaches you that you only can’t control time even if the odds are in your favor.